"Utah Valley Pediatrics, this is Hannah..."

well hey.

catch up:

new job at the hospital; love it.

new home with new roommates; obsessed with it.

new goal; totally tackling it.

new brother-in-law; completely approve of it.

new hair; ya, i'm brunette now...nbd.

a lot more has happened and changed, but lets face it...you don't care.

i've been home alone for about two weeks now, with a brief intermission for a california christmas. if you know me well, you're aware of the fact that i adore good old fashioned alone time. i'm close to myself, i know what i like, more importantly, i know what i don't like...so i have a pretty good time on my own.

also, i'm single, so there's no one i have to answer to. i have a home, town, and life to myself this short while. and i won't lie, it's been awesome.

but.

being alone has awarded me some perspective on a life without loved ones.

say i didn't have a mother to call when i need to look busy while in an elevator with intimidating doctors.

say i didn't have a brother to text when i royally screw something up.

say i didn't have a sister to call and complain to when i hate everything and anything about life.

and say i didn't have a dad to run to when i realize just how small and helpless this 20 yr old girl really is.

what would you do? sure you have roommates, sure you have friends. but how far can they go to help? to the death like your family? absolutely not. and that's saying you're lucky enough to have selfless people around you daily.

if you lacked all aspects of a family in your life, i guarantee your wild, successful, bachelorette/bachelor lifestyle would be shadowed with a thin layer of sadness and longing. thin, making it difficult to identify.

so do yourself a favor and do what the Lord asks of us.

put your family before anything. put the goal of creating your family before anything.

pride, self-pity, jealousy, and anger have no place.

do away with them, and get close to your tribe, cause eternity is for freaking ever.

on a lighter note: i have 6 baby names picked out for myself already--middle name included.

embarrassing? yes. but more terrifying cause i'd have to have 6 kids to keep them all.

tragic.

i'm a little too in love with candles lately. feel a bit like i'm summoning my ancestors' spirits. mulan would totally be on board.

the holidays were pretty good this year. my family always surprises me at how funny they are. even if we weren't related, i'm positive i'd still be bff with syd and cal.

know any inexpensive dentists? that's the last step i take before i start sprinting.

that's all for now.

time for a steaming hot foot bath. i definitely stomped through shin-deep snow to get to my car after work. currently NOT feeling agreeable.

love etc.